Projects

If anyone has paid attention to my ramblings over time you know that I'm a seat-of-my pants type of gal. I have more big dreams and ideas than the circus and things are constantly changing for me. I've completely given up trying to work on one story at a time because I am easily bored and distracted. My mind is like a room full of people and everyone is trying to talk at the same time. Sometimes certain voices drown out others and sometimes they all just scream and I get fed up and take a break. Well... enough of the analogies. What I'm currently working on is like five projects. Some may be finished soon and others much, much later. AnyHOO I've got a story going called "How to Kill a Monster" it's about a young man who has an encounter with evil and returns to his home to find sanctuary in the arms of a former bully. Silly I know, but the story is more about fate then anything. The former bully has his reasons for picking on David (the main character). I thought it would be interesting to write about a person who wasn't always a goody two shoes and if my audience comes to love him the way I do.. well then I've done my job. So back to the story--David runs home to find safety in the strong capable arms of his former bully. The man who used to pick on him wants nothing more than to make up for his past discretions. I won't say anything else until later. Besides I'm not even finished yet. Right now I'm deep into the good stuff. *wink* The second story I started is called "Omega Fall" it will most likely be a short read and I'm toying with the idea of making it the first book of a trilogy--"Beta Rift" and "Alpha Rise" would round out the series. I also have my Needful Things series to get started on. I'm hedging, I know. Just today I had this light bulb go off in my head urging me to write a story called. "Build a B.E.N." Sound familiar? That's cause it is. Build a Bear kind of tipped it off. So far the synopsis is that a young scientist who works for a giant government corporation called Ibram is asked to help destroy evidence of illegal human and machine experimentation. He manages to force himself to destroy the files and documents but there is just one thing he can't bring himself to destroy. B.E.N. Bioengineered-Epigonic-Neohuman. You see the young scientist has been working with B.E.N for months and he has developed feelings for the neohuman that cross the boundaries set by the Ibram coporation. Lastly, I have ideas for a couple of other stories. The plots are still shaky but the names kinda jumped into my head and held on with the tenacity of a rabid dog. "Drop Off" "Lion Down" and "No Frills".

On top of all this I have five stories to finish on AFF. Yeah, I'm swamped but I'm superexcited about the possibilities.

On My Way

It's the last day of college. I leave tomorrow, and next semester will be my last as an undergrad. As I look back on all the things I have accomplished in the last couple of months, I am surprised and deeply appreciative, and yes, damn proud. I could not have gotten where I was if I hadn't taken up the courage to post on several Myspace groups. It was there that a CEO of an up and coming publishing company discovered me. I had no idea I'd be published this soon, and I still have my doubts about being ready, but it's entirely too late for that now. I have six stories --six little labor of loves and *cough* not so love stories out there for the public to scrutinize. So far, so good. Hopefully I'll continue to write and improve my craft. I have a bizillion ideas in my head, around one hundred and fifty stories I've at least partially started throughout my lifetime, and only ten fingers. It's gonna take time I know, but ...I'm on my way.

Favorites of May

Books
1. The Last Bite by Evangeline Anderson
2. Six Bad Things by Charlie Huston
3. Already Dead by Charlie Huston
4. The Kiss by G.A Hauser
5. The Partisan by Martin Brant (one extra)

Movies
1. Sweeney Todd The Demon Barber of Fleet Street
2. Across the Universe
3. Forbidden Kingdom
4. Never Scared


TV
1.Orangutan Island
2.Flava of Love
3. Dirty Jobs w/Mike Rowe
4. Celebrity Fit Club

Music
1. Better That We Break by Maroon 5
2. Say All We Need by One republic
3. I Think I'm Paranoid by Garbage
4. Lately by KC and Jojo


Cravings
1. Payton's story from J.L. Langley
2. Another m/m read from Evangeline Anderson YAY!
3. Poser and an instruction manual
4. A book on writing improvement

Yep, I'm a Tigerrrr

According to the Chinese Zodiac, born in the year 1986=Tiger. Dunno about fortunes but most of this applies to me, I think. heh

Tigers may not be the king of the jungle, but these striped cats are no softies! Magnetic and self-possessed, Tigers are born leaders. They have an air of authority that prompts others to fall in line, which is exactly how they like it. Although they are magnetically charming and fun to be around, Tigers like to go it alone sometimes too. A Tiger's main interest is in following its ambitions -- and maintaining control.

Tigers are courageous beyond compare and generally come out ahead in battle, be it in the boardroom or the bedroom. Seduction is one area where the Tiger is definitely king! Noble and warm-hearted, Tigers have a natural, raw appeal that's extremely attractive to other Signs. They're not just about attraction, though; ever on the side of right, Tigers will fight the good fight to the bitter end if the cause is worthy. Opponents are wise to fear this feline.

A bit of caution is a good thing around Tigers, since they can pounce without warning. They experience mood swings and often feel things more intensely than others, the latter quality being both good and bad. They can react poorly under stress and are prone to emotional outbursts. This Sign's bristling sensitivity can send friend and foe running for cover.

A lesson that Tigers would be well-served to learn is moderation in all things. Once these cats can find their center and direct their considerable energies toward worthwhile endeavors (as opposed to racing through life), they will accomplish much.

Oh, Wow, I Cried

If anyone knows me they know that I am not the type to cry easily. The only time I get sappy are during heart wrenching moments I see in life or on TV. (I can even know its fiction and I'll still cry.)
Yesterday I was browsing youtube to find the video of the young boy who was bullied in school and sang like an angel. Well I found him, and though his performance made my vision blurry I did not cry...until I saw Paul Potts audition. Now here is a regular Joe. He's not handsome, muscular, charming, or any of the things we rom/ero authors love to write about. He is the real deal: awkward, plain of face, humble, slightly overweight, and imperfect as everyone, even those who 'look' perfect are. I think his performance moved me more than anything I've seen all year, because (at least to me) I could see his hunger for what he was doing. That made him handsome. It made him seven feet tall with giant muscles, because he was trembling, and yet he did it anyway. Paul sung Nessun Darma, which I had never heard before. I was not into opera, but after his audition it became an instant favorite. I looked up the translation of this Italian lyrics in the English version and it is perhaps the most romantic words I've ever read. So do yourself a favor and check it out. But remember to keep a tissue handy. I still cry every time I watch it, which has been about a dozen times. *g*

Paperback

I've been draining my account buying ebooks for some time now, and I've probably only purchased two or three paperbacks the entire year of 2007, but finally I went onto B&N and bought some books. They had some of my favorite authors in the bargain section, which means they were only $3.98. I purchased a hardcover by Christine Feehan for just that price. *grin*

I also bought "Me Talk Pretty One Day" by David Sedaris, "Brokeback Mountain" by Anne Proulx, "Fledgling" by Octavia Butler, "Nauti Boy" by Lora Leigh, and "Rainbow Boys" by Alex Sanchez. I'm still debating when I'm going to purchase "Want Me" by Rowan McBride.

Stop Moping

Have you ever been surrounded by people that mope all the time? People that are so depressed and saddened that it seems like a dark cloud hangs over their head? Well, I'm stuck in a rut I can't get out of, and its slowly depressing me too. You see, I'm in college, and most of my friends either claim depression or manifest symptoms of this epidemic. Honestly, until I came to ECSU I never knew there were so many people that were chronically pessimistic. It is very draining, trying to cheer everyone up, and I have to be the levelheaded person because no one else is. I've had long drawn out conversations about clinical depression. Now, I do believes it exists, but I can't seem to tell the difference between a legit depression and just being pessimistic and moody. I mean, COME ON, all the time? People are walking around confessing to having the worst life on the planet and yet they eat, sleep in a bed, ARE attending COLLEGE to get a better education. I'd say we have a leg up on about sixty percent of the population here, ladies n' gentlemen. We live in America for cripes sakes, not Cuba, or Afghanistan. We are not dodging bullets, or running for our lives. We have a few tests and some classes, a midterm and final. We are free to do what we want! So why the moping and why the dejected face? How come, everytime the sun comes out, you expect it to rain? I can't get my head wrapped around it. Suddenly, I am wishing for the comfort of home and my family: a place where we laughed or cried, and moved on. Most of the time it was filled with laughter. If you were bored, you went out and did something. There was definitely no time to sit and be a moper. Ultimately, I'm thinking, that moping is a viscious cycle. I mean, how can you possibly feel any better, if you always believe you won't?

Anyway, I've ranted enough. I'm off to emerse myself in a crowd of mopers again, because they are my friends, and I feel obligated to help them muddle through, yet, again.